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What are you proud of?

October 9, 2009

proudI’ve been having a tough couple of weeks what with one thing and another. Nothing specific I’ve just been feeling rather down and a bit lost. I feel like I’m failing at everything, I don’t have time to do what I need to in a day and I’m getting panicked about starting back at uni. I feel like nothing is going right & I can’t drag myself out of this little hole I’m buried in.

Last weekend though, I was having the usual shopping trip with Sam, my Mum and Grandma. I found a gorgeous cream, knee length mac and tried it on in a size 14. This may not sound small to most people but to me it was a revelation. It’s a bit tight around my excessively large, child bearing hips but as I have another 3 stone to lose that’s no big deal. My lovely Grandma bought it for me, telling me she was so proud of me for doing this well and she had no doubt I’d lose the rest of the weight.

Later, I was telling my Mum how I was worried about fitting my uni work in around my full time job and Sam, how this was the Employment Law semester & I didn’t think I was intelligent enough to cope with it. She told me how proud she was of me for studying while working and having a baby and if I really wanted it then I could do it without a problem.

Just these 2 comments made me feel about 10 feet tall. I get bogged down in the little things, the washing up not being done, the washing not being put away, the reading to be done for next weeks class. The world will not fall apart if these aren’t done. Generally I’m doing a good job  – not great but good enough. We should stop being so hard on ourselves.

In the last few weeks I’ve noticed that a lot of people are a bit down. The weather has turned, dark mornings and nights are creeping in, swine flu and general illnesses are on the increase, the recession continues (not according to some but I’m still bloody skint), Christmas and all the present buying is just around the corner. It’s a wonder most of us are still functioning.

I don’t think anyone is taking enough time out to think about their achievement, the things they are doing well and the things they are proud of. It’s much easier to beat ourselves up about what the don’t do or do badly.

So, I’m starting a meme. I have no idea if it’s been done before, exactly how a meme works or meme etiquette so I’m just bumbling my way through!  I’d like people to list 5 things they are proud of – it doesn’t have to be recent, it doesn’t even have to be big. So, who to tag?

Josie is having a very rough few weeks and I think she needs to big herself up a little bit.

Emily has hinted at a fascinating life so I’m being very nosy!

Tim is a daddy blogger and an author and I think he’s very interesting.

Mama B has no idea who I am but I love her blog and apparently she lives near me.

The NDM lives in Oz & I’d like to live there too.

So for those random, and possibly ridiculous reasons I’d like to know what they are proud of. I’d love to know others too.

My 5:

  1. I’m proud of myself for losing 3 stone. It was hard but I did it, which means I know I can lose another 3 when I start back on the diet next week.
  2. I’m proud of myself because when I was 23 I moved to China on my own to live and work for 7 months. It was completely out of character & most people didn’t think I’d last for 5 minutes. I did though and it was amazing.
  3. I’m proud of myself for being in my 4th of 5 years of studying for my professional qualifications. I do this in the evenings on top of my full time job and being a mum. I’ve studied through planning a wedding, being pregnant (I had Sam 5 weeks after my final exams in my 2nd year), being on mat leave (I went back to uni when Sam was 10 weeks old) and being back at work. Actually I’m bloody proud of this. It’s been so hard and I’m nearly there. 
  4. I’m proud of myself for managing to pack socks in Sam’s bag today because yesterday I forgot and his Nana had to buy him some.
  5. I’m proud of myself for managing to keep Sam alive for the past 15 months. Sometimes I wanted to throw him out of window, sometimes I caught him chewing wires. He’s here though , miraculously and I have had a big part in that.  
13 Comments leave one →
  1. October 9, 2009 9:46 am

    Do you know what? I’m proud of you too.

    Thank you for this. Really made me smile this morning – you are lovely xxx

    • notsuchayummymummy permalink*
      October 9, 2009 9:04 pm

      And I’m proud of you! You do a wonderful job in a difficult situation. Kai’s a fabulous little boy & it’s all down to you! Weel, I suppose Ant may have had an impact too of course! xxx

  2. October 9, 2009 9:59 am

    What a great idea! Accentuate the positive (as Bing Crosby and the Andrews Sisters used to say. Or was that the Beverley Sisters?) Anyway, I’m on to it… Thanks!

    • notsuchayummymummy permalink*
      October 9, 2009 9:05 pm

      Exactly my point – no one else will big us up so we should!

  3. October 9, 2009 11:06 am

    Hi there. Laura (Are We Nearly There Yet Mummy) sent me your way. Great blog! And wow!!! for your achievements. I did it, too: the degree, the job, the baby. But separately, i.e. I am a stay at home mum at the moment. I have no idea how you manage to cope, but I know that I would have failed miserably. Well done!!!

    • notsuchayummymummy permalink*
      October 9, 2009 9:07 pm

      Hi there! I’ve been reading your blog for a while now but always forgot to follow you!
      I couldn’t be a stay at home mum – I think that’s harder than going out to work!
      I cope because I have to! No one will give me a promotion for sitting on my bum! I need a better life for my family and that means studying. 😦
      Thanks for reading! x

  4. October 9, 2009 11:08 am

    You should be proud of yourself.

    • notsuchayummymummy permalink*
      October 9, 2009 9:08 pm

      Thanks! I’m repeating the mantra ‘I do good things and am not rubbish’ 50 times a day. I will not focus on the bad things anymore.

  5. October 9, 2009 6:42 pm

    Great idea – and you’re right to be proud of all those things! Here here to a bit of credit crunch busting positivity! 🙂

    • notsuchayummymummy permalink*
      October 9, 2009 9:09 pm

      Positive thinking is free and makes us feel as good as a nice bottle of wine but without the cost & hangover!

  6. October 9, 2009 6:50 pm

    Thanks for the tag sweetie – I will see what I can do! And yes, being proud is a good thing…I think we can all be proud of being mothers because sometimes I have no idea how any of us cope. Hope you start feeling better. Mwah xxx

    • notsuchayummymummy permalink*
      October 9, 2009 9:11 pm

      I don’t know how you cope with 2 little ones, 1 big one and a husband that works away.
      I bow down to you! I have a lot of people around me to help and still barely cope!

  7. Gemstar permalink
    October 10, 2009 5:36 pm

    Ah hun, you are quite right to be proud of yourself, I only work half a day a week and I struggle to keep up with my study! Well done you, you are a beautiful lady and very lovely! xx

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